When I dare to be powerful

(originally written 10/10/08)

"When I dare to be powerful - to use my strength in the service of my vision, then it becomes less and less important whether I am afraid"- Audre Lorde

“Do you ever get nervous about all of this? Because I totally see your calling and totally see it now, 5 years from now, 15 years from now…” and as she asked me that, I admitted, sometimes it freaks me out.

These women who are fueling and sharpening my vision and wanting to help me do it and see it to the next level and get trained and equipped to do it on a larger scale.

And then I come to moments where it’s scary because it is so much larger than me. But at the same time that fear is also exciting. Make sense? Kinda.

God has given each of us a kingdom vision that is much larger than ourselves, for our lives are in the context of something so much bigger and greater.

And I’m finding the days or the moments when I am afraid are few and far between, for as my boy Brennan Manning says, “God’s grace always precedes his call.” All the grace I need for each next step is already there, given.

‘The one thing we owe absolutely to God is never to be afraid of anything.’ His (Charles de Foucauld’s) unflinching trust in the love of God morphed into humble confidence that the grace for the next step in the dance of life was already there, given. Without anxiety, Abba’s children move forward, knowing that the next and the next and the next steps will take care of themselves.”- B. Manning